Calvin Nolan is dead.
Heart attack.
I had to read the news in a FaceBook post three times before
my mind could absorb it.
My family and I met Calvin 15 years ago. We attended the
same church, until the military moved us across country. After talking with
him on several occasions, I knew I had to tell his story. I published what
you are about to read sometime around 2001. Now that Calvin is dead, I am urged
to tell it again because it is the ageless story of how Christ really can
change a person. It’s the story of what true conversion is all about.
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From Jail to Jesus
By Richard Maffeo
As a young adult, Calvin never expected to find
himself in a church. Jail, yes. But church? The thought never crossed his mind.
In those early years the 6' 2", 350 pound human tank inspired little else than fear in
others.
But things would become different for him. Much different.
Born in a gang and drug-riddled area of St Louis, Missouri, Nolan learned to live and prosper on the streets. Before his eleventh birthday
he’d already earned a nice chunk of change selling drugs. He quit school at
sixteen and filled his free time shooting dice, selling crack-cocaine,
marijuana, PCP -- and anything else he could get his hands on.
It was only a matter of time before big trouble sunk its
claws into him. In 1980, he and his buddies were shooting dice in the corner
of the local school yard when a neighborhood thug robbed him at gun point.
Calvin swore he’d get even.
He did the evening he stepped into a crowded tavern and
found him. Both men pulled their guns, but Nolan was faster. When the screaming
stopped, the other man lay in an expanding pool of blood oozing from five
bullet holes.
“The police didn’t have no trouble findin’ me,” he said.
“They found me the next morning smoking crack cocaine on my front stoop. They
sent me to prison for three years for manslaughter.”
After serving his time, he moved to Los Angeles to get
away from the streets of St. Louis. But that only changed one dead-end for
another. When he ran out of money he turned to robbery and bought himself a
second tour behind bars.
Two years later, he again walked free. But within days,
he fell in with his old friends and started the same cycle of drugs, dice and
women. It didn’t take long for his cash to dry up. Taking stock of his
situation, he teetered on the brink of committing another robbery “because
crime was the only thing I knew.”
At the pleading of his mother, Nolan packed his bags and
moved to Wichita to live with an aunt. But within weeks, he met friends he’d
known in prison. They set him up in an apartment, gave him drugs, a gun, and a
car. He was back to his old lifestyle.
One evening, his friends left him alone in the house
while they went to a gang-fight. “I had nothin’ to do, so I smoked their crack.
Used up all they had, too.”
In his stupor he knew his friends would kill him when they
discovered what he’d done. Bone-chilling
fear suddenly gripped him -- fear so real it nearly sobered him. For the first
time in his memory, he prayed.
As a youngster, he had heard about God, but never paid much
attention. “I knew God was not someone to play with,” he said, “and I didn’t
have my life right. But I didn’t want to change.”
But now, with terror wrapped around his gut, he looked
toward heaven. “God, if you really exist,” Calvin prayed, “help me out of this
mess.”
He stuffed a few clothes into a paper sack, bolted from the
apartment and made his way to the bus depot and bought a ticket on the first
bus that came along. It was going to San Diego. He boarded with two zip-lock
bags of cocaine, a nine-millimeter handgun and $3,800 dollars. Once again, he
changed his address . . . but didn’t know how to change inside.
Within a month of arriving in San Diego, he’d smoked all his
crack, lost all his money and had no place to live. Then walking by a downtown
storefront, he saw the sign in the window of a Rescue Mission. It read: “If
you need help, come on in.”
He went in.
At the mission Calvin met the pastor of a local church who,
week after week, invited him to Sunday worship. Finally, he agreed to attend,
“just so he’d leave me alone” he said. It
was then that he heard the gospel in a way that revolutionized his life.
“I never heard someone speak about God with that kind of
authority,” he said. “The pastor showed me the Scriptures about sin and
salvation, and I wrote them all down. A few days later I said one of the
pastor’s prayers the pastor had given me.”
Nolan became a permanent fixture at the Mission, working as
their maintenance man and groundskeeper. As he involved himself in the Bible
studies at the Mission and attended worship services at his new church, his
faith and understanding of Christ grew.
Several months later two area churches joined forces to
expand their work among those without a church home in the city. During a time
of worship at the Mission, he shared his testimony -- the drugs,
manslaughter, prison terms. He didn’t soften anything.
The men from one of the churches sensed the hand of God on Calvin’s life. After meeting with their pastor, they offered him a job as
maintenance man at their church.
Part of his new responsibilities involved the upkeep of the
church’s state-licensed preschool and, to comply with state law, he was
fingerprinted.
“I knew I’d be fired once the State got my prints,” he said. State law mandated that convicted felons could not work around children.
As expected, a few weeks later the church received a call from the licensing
bureau. “Do you know you have a twice-convicted felon working for you?”
When Calvin learned of the call, he told the pastor he was
quitting. “I didn’t have the resources
to fight the state,” he said.
But the church leaders would not give up so quickly. They
appealed the State’s decision and requested a hearing. As both parties waited
to go to court, the State ordered him to stay away from the preschool.
“It broke my heart,” he said, “when the little kids waved at
me and I had to keep on walking.”
During the hearing the attorneys for the State repeatedly
challenged the church, “Don’t you know what Mr. Nolan has done?” And each time, the church leaders responded,
“Yes, we know all about his past. But Christ has changed him. He’s a new
man.” The pastor added, “If a man, saved
and changed by the power of God can’t work in a church, where can he work?”
Calvin's support did not come only from the church were he
worked. More than sixty parents and community leaders flooded the chambers to
defend their friend. A local attorney told the judge, “I would trust that man with my life . . . and with the lives of my family members.”
The hearing lasted seven hours. Then came the waiting. Six
weeks later the judge finally rendered his five-page decision. It concluded, in
part:
“The list of witnesses who testified on behalf of (Calvin Nolan) is impressive both in number and in caliber. . . . The court has heard
many licensing discipline cases, but has never encountered such as outpouring
of support . . . . (Therefore) there is
substantial and convincing evidence to support a reasonable belief that (he)
is of such good character as to justify an exemption to allow (him) to . . .
retain his position at the church and all its related duties.”
Calvin and his friends could almost hear heaven rejoice.
Scripture promises, “If any man is in Christ, he is a new
creature. Old things have passed away. Behold all things are new” (2
Corinthians 5:17). Calvin started life in the ghettos of St Louis and wended
through the darkest corners of drugs, death, and prisons. But God reached from
heaven and took a lawless man and gave him much more than a change of address.
God gave him a new heart.
Before I concluded my interview, Nolan was quick to add,
“If God did that for me, He’ll do it for anyone who asks for His help.”
And to that, everyone who has met Christ can readily say, "Amen."