Not to us, O Lord, not to us, but to
Your name give glory . . . (Psalm 115:1)
My earliest recollection of seeing
anyone make the sign of the cross was when I watched Bing Crosby in “Going My
Way” and “The Bells of St. Mary’s.” Of course, as a Jew, I never thought much
about the practice. I figured it was a “Catholic” thing. And besides, Jews
prayed differently. So when as a young adult I discovered my Messiah Jesus, I
prayed to Him in the only way I knew to pray: close my eyes and talk to
Him.
But when I became a Catholic
thirty-three years later, I started my prayers with the sign of the cross
because, well, that’s what Catholics do.
In those days as a new Catholic, as I
traced the cross over my chest, I did it slowly. Thoughtfully. Reverently. I
focused on each Person of the Trinity as I said, “In the Name of the Father,
and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.” I knew during that short introductory
prayer I was entering into the presence of Almighty God – the One who created
me, who nurtured me, who protected me, and who sent His Son to die on a cross
that I might live with Him forever.
But like with many rituals, in time I
fell into a pattern of thoughtlessness. I became comfortable with the movement
of my right hand from my forehead to my abdomen, to my left shoulder, then to
my right. Without realizing it, I began mouthing the Names of the Persons
within the Holy Trinity without actually thinking of Him. I made the sign without reverence. Or purpose.
The prayer became perfunctory.
Of course, ‘perfunctory’ is not really
that surprising an outcome when we do things over and over. It is a danger
everyone faces, regardless of the church they attend. But while the danger of
‘routine’ is an important topic for all Christians, it is not the point of this
essay.
Christians have been prayerfully making
the sign of the cross for two thousand years. Tertullian, a 2nd
century theologian and apologist, wrote: "In
all our travels and movements, in all our coming in and going out, in putting
of our shoes, at the bath, at the table, in lighting our candles, in lying
down, in sitting down, whatever employment occupies us, we mark our foreheads
with the sign of the cross." In the
fourth century, Cyril of Jerusalem wrote similarly of the sign: "Let us
then not be ashamed to confess the Crucified. Be the cross our seal, made with
boldness by our fingers on our brow and in everything; over the bread we eat
and the cups we drink, in our comings and in goings; before our sleep, when we
lie down and when we awake; when we are traveling, and when we are at
rest."
Clearly, tracing the cross over ourselves as a mark of reverence for God has two thousand years of historical precedent. So why did I, for more than thirty years as a Christian, avoid making that sign during my prayers? For two reasons: First, I did not know its long and precious history. And second – and most troubling to me – I did not make the sign because it was too “Catholic.”
Too Catholic?
What kind of a reason is that? To
follow that line of logic, I should have also avoided prayer altogether, or memorizing
Scripture, or attending church, or singing hymns because all of those things
were also done by Catholics. For me to do likewise would make me – what? Catholic?
Worse things could happen.
Anyone with even a rudimentary
knowledge of Christian history should know it was the Catholic Church that
defined and preserved for us the canon of Scriptures. It was the early Catholic
Church councils that defined and defended essential doctrinal truths such as
the trinity, the deity of the Lord Jesus, and the deity of the Holy Spirit.
Christianity would be unrecognizable today were it not for the various Catholic
Church Councils’ protection and preservation of Biblical doctrine.
I am sometimes overwhelmed when I think
of how my prejudice against Catholics and Catholic rituals robbed me of
something that has now become precious to my relationship with Christ.
Oh, Lord! In the Name of the Father,
and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit, continue to open my eyes – to open
our eyes – to your eternal truth.